so life today. supposed to be wid the guys for the whole day, but wasnt in the best mood lately. accumulated moods frm the past 5 days, from tiring work hours to pissed off issues. so, didnt meet the guys till 9 plus. skipped the dinner and movie im still broke after the ktv session.
somehow i couldnt live without my aunt thats for sure. cause life is hell now without her finances.
met vic, acc her to workplace to cancel her work, den headed to queenstown to have dinner, which after we went to wait for the guys at crystabelle. and the ktv sessions started again.


somehow those words and emotions cant get out of me. abit emo though, but i really cant help it.
if im really judging a book by its cover, den why are people judging my friends, and telling me who i should mix with, who i shouldnt. talk abt unfairness, i think its more unfair to me. i do what my conscious tells me, and not what others say. thats something i can assure myself. am i or am i not, being unreasonable? i dont have expectations of other people, i just want to let them into my life, to understand me well enough before they can fucking judge me for who i am, and what i do. i dont need endless sense talking or nagging to make me wake up and do things the way people want me to. im not a follower, im someone to make, not to be broken. i've hidden my face behind the mask of a cheerful potrait long enough before i can even break down. i dont think its fair to throw my tantrum to those who dont deserve to see my fucked face. i dont need people to tell me to be more mature, to show respect to my elders, nor being a nobleman and buy food for my family, so on and so forth. its all bullshit. i may be outright stubborn, but i live the life i desire, and i contend myself. cause if there's anyone who's gonna tell me what kind of person i should be in future, please save it. dont tell me dont show me, cause its gonna backfire way before you'll realize it.

once again. thanks you people, who stood by me all these while, who tolerated my nonsense, my temper, my all sorts of behavior ive shown. and those who cant take it, i thank you people too. cause without you my life isnt any worst or deteriorating at all.

first and foremost. i have to thank you IVY. you're that 1 person who i've constantly confided in no matter what issues i have, no matter what temper i've thrown. u've always been there. yes i need u like water,like breath,like rain. i could really say you understand me the most, well enough to judge what kind of a person or a friend i really am.

secondly to chicken and peeps, to justin and peeps. you people have made me adapt to different kind of lifestyles i've never experienced, and different way of approaches no matter what circumstances. ive shared equal emotions and issues with you 2 separate groups. i dont think i've shown any bias to any either sides in terms of behavior and all, and i treat you guys all the same. And like water, like breath, like rain. you guys were always here whenever i needed you. and of course, like mercy from heaven's gates. its a rip off from the song lyrics, but it symbolizes the importance of you guys.


and to that 1 friend of mine, although we're like strangers now, you made me felt how important you once were, and how i've always been there for you. nevertheless, though you've gave me loads of advice, i think its time i take off from here. i've my own wings now to make my own choices, just like you do. we never once crossed each other's path, and will never do. though i still stick to my stand, i wish you good, and good-bye.



if we ever say we're never be together then we end it with goodbye, dont know what i'd do, i'm lost without you