just got home not long after staying at jeremy's place. for 2 straight row. havent been in best of mood lately so didnt felt like staying put at home. im sick tired of many things seriously. sick and tired of satisfying people's needs. im not a fucking maid so please get things right. im not meant to be at people's beck and call. unless that person's really worth it. many things' been filling my mind lately. sometimes i just feel there's nowhere to run to, no one to turn to when you emotions all burst from your mind.
if every friend of yours needs your comfort at the same time, which friend would you turn to?
everything that happened lately has slowly becoming a silhouette of me. its following me whenever i go, so much so i cant even take a break off these thoughts. i just wanna put on a smile on my face again, a smile of authenticity. but i cant. maybe its a game heaven arranged to play with me. an obstacle, a test. something to strike me down hard, to wake me up. or maybe its just giving a hint for me to wake up and see who are really the ones with me, and realize the people beside me.

IVY ONG!! where are you?????!!!!!!!! go missing for so long!!!!



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