there's never a right time, right time to say goodbye

just wrote finish that post for one of my dearest friend or darling. hands damm tiredddd. listenin to cao ge and zhuo wen xuan's liang san bo yu zhu li ye. yes its a great song i know. so life today.
went out to find jobs wid jian ying and ivan at tanjong pagar. was an agency thinggy. crap tHinggy but managed to apply for the admin and packing posts. den went to vivo to try our luck. toy'r'us was a bitch indeed, with a word if "NO" it settled our enquiry. suckass ppl they got there. den headed to kopitiam, which i dont get the fucking idea behind the borders that separated HALAL AND NON HALAL food. Like racism u get wad i mean? i tot we're meant to be multi racial man. like the chinese 1 side and the malay 1 side. wth man. cause ivan bought food frm the NON halal side and brought into the halal side the cleaners drove him away. wtf man. i wonder who the fuck came up wid those rules. anyways, den i headed home to take a bath, and went to pick ivy up frm nyp. OR rather she waited for me at yio chu kang mrt station cause i was late. den bumped into justin at tiong bahru mrt. saw him in tweeds. looked fuckin' awesome man. i wondered why i looked like shit in it. no i dont look like shit but the shoe made me looked like shit okay. anyways, test drive my jedi today. yea im quite feelin it. great pair too. missed my tiffs bucks and tweed low, hi, and my true blues though.

okay out of point. back to today's life. dennn ivy and i went to bistro again as usual, drink and ate abit of wedges. and that look ivy gave when i faked throwing tissue at her. SO CUTE. LOL. and so i started and continued making fun of her. den we went to find justin jasmin kelwin and huiting, which after that sent ivy home before i headed home and pooof, here i am writing this...so far today havent been thinking much about it, so hope those thoughts will go away, cause if its over it shld be over.



if i were to drink the poison like romeo did, would you die wid me like juliet did ?

choices

in life no doubt there are choices to make. sometimes we make the wildest choice, and den we tend to regret. we dont often think of the consequences, or the outcome. but in any case we choose our own paths, because no one else could decide for us our paths. no matter good or bad we still have to face the consequences isnt it, and that again, no one can bear for us. because we have to clean our own shits. prbly our shits are too smelly or smth no one else willing to clean. but den again, we reap wad we sow. if we dont take good care of the crops den we just have to eaten either wilted crops, if not drowned crops. so bear in mind, to walk every step carefully, because we can never turn back time to make another decision, nor can we change the paths anymore. any changes will definately cause hurt, to either ourselves, or others, or even both. no matter wad others say, we shld always follow our own hearts isnt it. cause if its harmful to ourselves there's no way we'd do it. life, it always gives us problems, as though heaven wants us to play a game. but after all, the ball is in our court, shouldnt we play the game well enough? i've been thru the darkest storm and the brightest sunshine, its all like a simple game of checkers. one wrong move, everything else falls apart. u think and u try to find a solution, but u end up filling yrself wid more and more questions that u are incapable of answering, and the problem ends up like a bottomless pit. so before u start the game, realise your potential and the players, as well as the oppponent, which is the problem. to that friend of mine i hope u will read this and i hope it'll help you in this period of time =DD


this goodbye i'll say to you, loving you i probably will, until the time is up i bleed my heart to you.

aftermath.

okay so i just woke up, hoping today i'll feel better. cause life seriously is boring. those bastards at Wingtai havent called. and im like rotting everyday and splurging everyday.
If they call, i can work immediately at least i got some cash later on. but kinda bored, working 5-6 days a week man. i think ill prbly run away frm that job after 1 month. haha.
blog's kinda dull, no pics. so ill prbly upload some later on. =DDD good day ~


maybe its game over, maybe its the time,to say goodbye, but if there's a chance i'd still give you my hand only if u reach out and grab it

a big thank you my friends

Okay, so if ive hurt anyone with the words in the boys, eg the word " pretty boy" im sorry okay.
the apology is sincere because i dont get the seriousness in it, but still im apologising anyways. cause i dont want it to affect our friendship. but that 1 thing wont change. and u guys know it. at least KT that cock eye knows it. so yea, no harm done. dis is it.



and to all my other friends. kt and peeps, yes things are getting better i admit, but only some don't. i may be getting better wid yall, but i wont desert my new friends, cause they're the ones who've been there for me thru these months. but still, u peeps got a place there's for sure.

justin sk kelwin huiting jasmin, u fella have indeed cleared the dark clouds for me when i have went thru the stormy weathers. though i'm in better terms wid kt and peeps, i wont forget you guys. i know its mushy goddamn it, i love y0u guys =D damm my hair is standing.

and yes, IVY. you've gone thru wid my everything. my brightest sunshine and my darkest storm.everything. i confided in you in almost everything. no matter what you were always there. and i still had the cheek to make you angry. 102nd sorry, and love you too =DDD

and cheryl. fat leggies. you've also heard me whine, and listened to me laugh. you're the next beside ivy already lah. haha u too

and kt, u fuckin gay fag. ill heed your advices dont worry man. u've been quite matured. for a gay shit. so yea, here's a thanks to you

and ji, yes we're getting better. every1 has to take a step back in order to make things better, so yea here's a thanks too.

and justin, black boy, thanks for all that joy u brought all these while, kelwin and sk, jasmin and huiting you all too =DDD

Jenn i didnt forget you too okay. so if ure seeing dis, here's a thanks to you to. you're like a wife, but no you're not a wife. remb what i told u okay =D million thanks to you too.


those ive missed out you guys too. rock yea!!

the world stopped revolving

sometimes its just hard to describe how you feel for another person, cause sometimes the feel just goes away. duh im abit flirtatious but i swore dis time its kinda for real. but i dont know why the thing just went away lately. there's just no more chemistry, and everything starts turning dull. yes i know things went quite well and nice, but suddenly the feel just went away. is it me or is it that there's just something missing...i mean yea she's nice, she's quite caring bla bla bla. but all of a sudden everything went blank.
prbly not meant to be afterall =)
but duh, life has to go on. so julian chan, wake up, haf fun !!

so story of my life today, went to collect my clothes that i left behind during the chalet, went to send my dunks to sk and justin. abit heart pain to part wid my true blue and tweeds, but had to sacrifice abit for the sake of my jedi. aiya in life its all abt give and take i guess. so yea den collected my jedi. damm great condition except for abit of dirt on the laces. i guess this shoe wont stay for long either, it'll prbly go just like my tiffs and bucks and tweeds low. the feel isnt alot. shucks man wads coming over me??

Anyways, been hearing the song say goodbye for the past 30mins.
Chris brown's Say goodbye


Look we gotta talk
Dang I know
I know it's just
It's just...
Some things I gotta get of my chest alright....
Yeahhhh...
Whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa...
Listen..

Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh [4x]
Do you hear me crying?
Oh, oh, oh [4x]

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

let the world revolve around us

goooooooooooooddddie mornin'. fuckin 11 plus today. guess im gonna pack my room, den go viknesh place to collect my leftovers frm the chalet, den meet up wid sk and justin to give them the shoes. fuckin boring day indeed. waiting for those bastards at Wingtai to call me back regarding my job. and yAyyyy i got the song already. zhi qian ni de shou.

ivy's got no school today, prbly call her up later =D



let the world revolve around us both, and leave it all behind. just give me your hands, ill give you my all.

if i aint got you

god damm tired i just returned to my crib frm chinatown's kster. supposedly to find a job but the 4 of us got kinda bored, so yea went to kster to sing our lungs out. god damm the song "zhi qian ni de shou" is like stuck in my head. so the story of my life today : i went for the fuckin' interview wid the guys at causeway point at G2000 there. they had better not post me to places like G2000. cause i really cant get used to that goddamm formal clothes thinggy. prbly they'll hire me. LOL. over confident abit doesnt kill right...if they dont ill prbly take up the job selling some shit bags at chinatown. isnt that bad either...as long as its not at bugis or far places

tried to get to her today but hell she didnt pick up the fone, wonder where's she now.
doin quite well so far so good yea =D
well dear life please dont let me down im pinning my hopes and happiness in you.


in life you should try your very best, to backfire the people who despise you, to shut the trap of those who criticise you, and those who simply treat you like thrash. and that 1 person, i will never forget nor forget. because no matter how i change, the fact wont change. people may say you have changed for the better, but to me you'll always be in my anarchy list. your pretty lil boy can side u but goddamn lets wait and see =D

here i go, scream my lungs out trying to get to you, you are my only one, cause there's just no one, no one like you.

reality of hurting

i've never realised how hurting my words could get until i realize how im about to lose someone i really treasure, so i guess its time for 180 deg change i guess. ive never realised how mean and dominant i could get when i flare up. prbly its something very difficult to change, but i'd give it a shot and try to correct myself. i could really forgive and forget abt the quarrels ive had with chick jeremy and kt, i mean it takes 2 hands to clap so its fair that i too ask for forgiveness. other than these 3 buddies i dont think there's any chances of regaining friendship when that friend doesnt even regard you as one. sometimes no matter how hard you try you just cant get things back in place, so might as well forget it.




These 5 letters i read in your identity, these 5 words i'll be there for you

28/nov

WAHHHEEEE. i finally did what my conscience told me to. and thats to buy the chocs and send to ivy's place. was kinda hilarious though, justin acted as a staff of ROYCE the choc shop. ivy guessed it was me, thats kinda boring. but at least i manage to make up for the hurt of those mean words i said to her. poor girl, still coughing. get well soon alright =D shucks man ivy's mom knows abt the i-made-ivy-angry thing. prbly her dad's gonna know too. LOL . anyways, 101 of the word "sorry" i wrote in the card, even though last min i managed to write and complete. 101 sorries is definately not enough, but i guess ivy shld be cooled down by now...

met HER when i was wid jennie last night. prbly gorgeous if u ask me. and the HER isnt ivy lah.
was kinda cute though the atmosphere, couple of mins spent only cause she had wedding dinner after that. oh shucks i actually saw the email she sent me only today when she sent DAYS AGO when she was in beijing. now she's back anyways.

and yes, the five letters of her name.