Burnt marks and sweet nothings
Sunday, December 31, 2006
2 weeks to go, u'll see the cash soon alright!!
no matter what obstacles you come across,
be independent! no quitting!!
dont be disappointed,
2 weeks only, prove to yrself you're not a quitter.
no matter what others say or do, do what your conscience tells you to!
try not to throw yr temper alright, bear bear bear.
u lose your cool now u wont gain back the cash,
2 weeks, 14 days more.
alright i sound like a psycho, but yes, be strong. i'll pulll it through!!!!
if i dont have a place, then be it. dignity isnt everything now right
Saturday, December 30, 2006
why do i feel this way when you're not around, is it really you i'm fond.
and so today. life was much better, because of michael. he was like "aiya u work here under me, im very chin cai one, i understand u i wont make yr life difficult one" and so life was really a breeze today, except for my feet. and ivy's feet as well. poor fella, got blisters all over her feet. dont worry i nvr blame u for the scolding yesterday alright, dont put it to heart. working life aint simple at all so yea, sometimes u just haf to bear alot of things for the sake of money. just got home not long, gonna bathe soon, prepare for tmr's work at 0930. Life. sometimes it just be a bitch for awhile and then you'll see the light after it.
and my fellas, justin kelwin sk jasmin except for huiting cause i see her almost everytime i work. will meet up wid u guys soon alright! miss u guys loads!!
if telling you falling for you is that simple, then there wouldnt be any obstacles i cant overcome.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
went out wid aunty helen to put flowers at grandma's grave, den went to thomson. shopped abit. bought couple of boxers. haha. den went straight to aunty alicia's place for xmas dinner. hell there was a lot of food. thats the main reason why i went. LOL . drink abit there, but drank more after that. den went home, den headed to meet white whore and the rest aft that. then the drinking. wanted to call ivy out yesterday but she couldnt go out cause she thoned 2 nights already.
IVY ONG can u please come out one of these days i really missed u alright!!! u chicken wings!!!
havent seen u for like days!! almost 1 week already u know. and no, i wont go to yr place. ah ong either kill me or kill you, or kill us both.
and so, this year's present, solely from cheryl the fat legs. thanks fatty!! really liked those presents yea. nvr get any other presents from other ppl, but yea im alr used to it. cause ppl say xmas presents are the things u usually want and u'll get them. but nahh, i dont get wad i want, so forget abt xmas presents its all crap.
而我对你的期待 被你一次次摔坏 已经碎成太多块 要怎么拼凑跟重来
Monday, December 25, 2006
but the xmas mood, was boring. xmas every year seems to be boring...
oh yes, and so lest, im supposed to be honoured right u're my date this time around. u shld also be honoured. im your baby eh =DDD
she's all i want, just for me, underneath my xmas tee. i'll be waiting here,santa thats my only wish this year
Sunday, December 24, 2006
somethings are just better off unsaid
Saturday, December 23, 2006
came back frm kt's place at paya lebar. went to ' play ' soccer wid my injured ankle. life sucks. old ailment came back again on the ankle...cause we didnt had any place in mind to go, den decided to go kt's place. went to play billiard there first, den headed to his place to change. dis afternoon went to acc celeste to the doc's. poor thing cough like hell. take care alright =D and no, i dont wish u to die, im not a meanie OKAY. and yes i know how to take care of myself even though the floor might be slippery :D so u better get more rest at home alright.
okay backk to life. yesterday went out wid ivy n peiwen to town to acc peiwen buy a pair of earings for joey's birthday, den went to slack around at cream, den went to macs for dinner, den ivy headed home, peiwen waited for her guy of the month. and i went to find chicky n gang. took a bus down to anchorage to collect the presents frm cynthia, den took a bus to my place nearby and changed a cab up to mount faber to look for kt n jeremy. sat around and slacked till jason came and picked us up. aunty jason. LOL. hehehe so CUTE~ tmd thats like lord of the gays.
alright enuff of gayness, and so, xmas is COMING. Fuckinggggg boreddddddd. Ivy's got her plans already, and i dont know wad other plans the others are having. definately NO town for me please, sucks to be sprayed everywhere...ok so life these 2 days. sucked big time...
sometimes u regret not giving someone your attention only when that person does the same to you
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Monday, December 18, 2006
its birthday bash for cheryl and ivy today. well, dec's really tough, cause of so many birthdays, loads of money spent, but i guess its for good causes?
hope u girls will enjoy today, although nth special. and err, sorry ah presents dis year kinda budget, everyone's kinda broke, but still, hope u'll like em alright girls =D
sometimes u feel a certain way, but it tend to conclude in another. u feel u're about to get the answers, only to have more questions piling on you. why this, why that, etc. but have you ever really thought, only you have the real answers to them? or have u ever thought that 1 little action causes everything to trigger? a word or sentence you say could make a certain someone happy, or even bring their world down on them? 1 wrong move you make opens up undesirable consequences, or 1 right step you've missed causes gravity to pull you down to reality? time and time again we often blame ourselves " shit man i shld have done this, shld haf done that" if we could predict our lives, den maybe life isnt a bitch anymore. and the stress we get from the aftermath, is part and parcel of life that god installed in humans when he created adam and eve. everything happens for a reason
i wanna love you but i dare not touch, i wanna hold you but my senses told me to stop
Sunday, December 17, 2006
justin, choo, sk
went to celebrate vic's birthday wid chick and the fellas...went to zoo first to play the game. fuckinggg bored when me and chick went to search the questions the day before for 4 hours, only to be beaten down by ivy, viknesh and layhoon in 1 hr or so. supposedly to be finished at 330, but these 3 crazy fellas finished at 12 plus or 1...blardy hell, and so after that, lied to vic that i had to go home, could tell she was unhappy...so i got home, bathe and changed, took a cab to fetch jeremy and ivy, den went down to paragon's bakerzin to get the oreo cheesecake for vic's bday. den after that we headed to kster first, to sing and all that before chick, vic, layhoon and shaun came. surprise surprise we sang bday song, cut cake etc etc, sing and sing before heading home.
and so, life today i dont know, prbly getting ivy's present today. ivy ivy very hard to get yr present u know =/ sorry ah this year abit budget wont be getting u levis and dunks already. prbly when i get a stable job i'll get u a better present k...
and all the tears i've cried, no matter how i tried, will never bring you home to me...
Thursday, December 14, 2006
i believe god is fair, for your character thats why god punished you with your twins in this state. yes im cruel, but u aint any better. fucking pissed, i need a few days to cool down. i really do. good nights.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
IM GOT TO BE MAD. yes i think im going crazy. 14days i've locked down 8 days with KSTER.
so today, i went to meet ivy which peiwen came down to find us. den headed to taka to find chick, ah neh, and mushroom. den we walked around abit, before we all seperated our ways frm ivy and peiwen, who went home. so we went to kster for 4hrs here i am, back home. feeling kinda tired, esp after piggy-backing vic around lucky chinatown due to the floor of cockroaches on the floor and caused her to jump on me. anyways, yeah, den listened to abit of her problems, and yes, i had to suck the nectar off the flower to get her to return wid me back to the room =/
so yea, life's like this today. nights~
Monday, December 11, 2006
these people, my life.
and so yesterday. supposedly to be "stay home sunday" but unexpectedly kt called up my place and said he wanna come over. so yea he came over, for abt an hour plus den we took a cab down to pick chick and cynthia up. went to play billiards, den went to macs to haf dinner. macs again. 2 straight days ive been eating macs. past few weeks ive been eating loads of fast food. IM GONNA BE A FATTER ASS soon!!!! nnnnnnnoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!! and so we went to coffee club at paragon to eat cakes. den after sending cynthia to the bus stop the 3 of us went to kster. its my 5th time at kster in like 2 and a half weeks. yes i know its crazy, but life is boring yea.
No jobs, no love, no money. oh yes, 2 weeks time im gonna declare myself bankrupt already. vic,corrine,cheryl,ivy. happy birthday girls. im gonna go missing in action to save my pocket...
everyone knows how the heart can change, not to mention promises. knowing winter is still far away, my heart started snowing upon your expected departure
Saturday, December 9, 2006
and so, spend quite abit these few days, cant spend anymore alright, ivy and cheryl's bday coming. and corrine's is dis wed. hopefully aunty gives me more money. or else i can go to hell already. alright, watching bai fen bai now, ciaos
this love can repeat itself without any rehersals, because we're the ones acting it out without a script
Thursday, December 7, 2006
i cant do without you like how coffee dont taste good with sugar.
Wednesday, December 6, 2006
oh yes, rain's coming to s'pore. fuck the tickets are like soooo fuckin expensive. there's no way anyone would pay that kind of money. well, not me. unless im sellin away my supremes that's when im gonna watch the concert. goddamm no way it'll ever happen, cause if aunty finds out ive been splurging such money on shoes im gonna die soooo badly.
Prbly i would cough out cash for JIN SHA. dammmm 1 hot shit she is !!
i just wanna break you down so badly, well i trip over everything you say, i just wanna break you down so badly, in the worst way
i can see us holding hands, walkin on the beach, our toes in the sand
Tuesday, December 5, 2006
you've buried the heart i gave, and now im having a hard time finding it and putting it back in place
went to meet jenn earlier on, supposedly to look for corrine present, didnt spot anything but went shopping instead at zara n topshop. den sent her to school, caught in the rain somehow frm the bustop in town till meridian there. den took a goddamn bus home.
you and i, we're like a horror movie, unexpecting climax and spine chilling.
cause if its me you're gonna talk about behind, i'll break you down so badly you'd wished you never knew a person like me
Monday, December 4, 2006
sentosaaaaaaaaa
try and i try to get you off my mind, but it dont get no matter as each day goes by
Sunday, December 3, 2006
When everything else fails maybe all you need is that someone to lift it up again
yepp so slacked abit and sent ivy till the bus stop to take her bus. dennn went to marina wid sk to haf dinner, slacked abit, den came home. been gaying wid sk these few days. LOL. no choice the other 2 working, so we just haf to slack. oh yes, tmr im goin to apply for job at the luge. hopefully i get the job cause im like fuckin impatient waiting for bastards who told me " we will call you soon" to call me to work. if they dont wanna hire why not just fucking tel me in the face and not waste my time like goin all the way to causeway point to interview. waste of my goddamn time alright.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u4i4Gwl_Ns0 -> for those who wanna watch sick torturing videos. the black sun or whatever it's called. nearly made me vomitted my mushroom swiss. fuck. thanks celeste =) that can really make me become skinnier by see the video after every meal.
its like one of the SAW trilogies. jap version.
been hearing air supply's Goodbye after viewing corrine's friendster. really suit my mood for the last few days. thanks celeste for that song as well. thanks "BABY". LOL. that really sent a chill down my spine.
okay so there's nth to write already, so i guess ill end here.
u would never ask me why, my heart is so disguised, i just cant live a lie anymore
想這樣望著妳到永久
alright so im gonna find a job real soon. no matter wad job it is. im gonna find one and work.
even better if there's a field where i can do well in. im not goin back to do waiter jobs thats for sure. im not picky its just that its boring. like seah street. yes i admit my attitude sucks but they suck too man, those stinking uniforms make ppl look like clowns. well prbly i admit i looked like one. spastic ppl really look clowns in them. so wads life gonna be today. meeting ivy today to acc her study. prbly meetin up sk today. cause blackboy n oldboy working these few days god knows whr they disappeared to...
愛情如果都是微笑 那多美好,天亮的太早 在偷一秒
Straightjacket Feeling
and all the things you've put me through, i'm holding on but letting go of you
Saturday, December 2, 2006
Feels like rain
okay so im not gonna be picky anymore. just gimme a fucking job and ill stop my whining.
oh well, guess today's gonna bored as well.
if life is so short, why dont you let me love you before we run out of time, if love is so strong, why wont we take this chance before our time is up.
像空氣般不存在 再沒有痕跡的愛 你不在 當我需要你的愛 你不在
and i'd give up forever to touch you.
Friday, December 1, 2006
Iris.
Iris
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
(break and solo)
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am