Okay so i just got back from school, learnt couple of stuffs during FnB practical today.
learnt alot of about napkin foldings, the display and utility folds. well u might say " wah good what learnt so much" like my mom. but it sucks man though i know how to fold.
though i had fun in school, loads, but still a part of me still makes me think alot though, and thats my friends. i seriously miss them alot. though we'll go separate ways from now till the future into the working society, never will us be disintegrated =)
had econs lesson today. fuck none of them understood a word though they seemed to be hardworking. i could really say this class will jolly well be a competitive class, an individuality survival class. i guess i just have to really to work hard. god please shoot me.

and so, during comms class we had to present about if we were an object or thing, what would we be.
and here's the unfinished part, a couple of things deep inside i want to really be.
Time. I want to be time, to stop as and when due to my command. Somethings are worth fastfowarding, while others are worth stopping for. i could stop, and take a look around on the beautiful scenes ive missed, or those i was oblivious to. I used to skip many things which i dont bother to look about and just concentrated on my self centred thinking, not knowing other than thorns in life, there could be beautiful flowers, scented with sweetness along the way.

and one example of things that ive failed to see, is my weaknesses. ive lived in denial through my life, not knowing there are time ive arson my mind with all that shit thoughts, not bothering to think the reason. and i've never bothered to fight for my desires. friendships, relationships.
i never wanted to fight hard to salvage a real friendship until its lost, i have never wanted to go after the girl i really loved, giving excuses like no confidence. i've learnt confidence can be built, if you really try hard. and that no doubt, is something im starting to embark on, a journey that could really be colourful if you put in effort to colour.

i would wanna be a rollercoaster, to experience all sorts of life, ups and downs.
i used to be afraid of life having downs, and selfishly only wanted the ups. People can really love rollercoaster, or detest it. and thats what i want to be, to be liked and detested upon.
we cant expect all the best things in life isnt it?

being something called "memories" isnt as bad either.
like ive learnt from someone dear, memories play like film without sound.
flashbacks in an instant, could make someone just smile to himself or herself with silliness,
or make someone cry with regrets and hatred. A mistake made in the past, when flashed back into a person's mind, could well remind him or herself not to repeat, but rather repent.

so, to you nosey parkers reading this post,
IF you could be something to best reflect yourself, what would it be?



we cant buy back time, but we could spend the rest of our lives wisely