Dont tell me why you can read me,
when i tell you ignorance struck you for a long time.

guilt. the mother of all crimes, the government of all wrongdoings.
and the holder of your conscience.
people tend to keep quiet at things. they cant give u a definition of something you want. why? its because they dont realize something they've been accumulating that seems to be wrong.
people just takes others for idiots, thinking life goes on without any thing that seemed to be wrong.
and you seemed like you've been sentenced for it =/


i cant tell you what i want, why not tell me what you can offer ?

If i ever die tomorrow,
letters ive written and kept will be sent out to everyone, everyone whom i treasure. I feel like im disintegrated from life, i feel helpless. so bad till i cant even do anything to change my own fate.
I've more or less finished writing all these letters, in case my life ends in an instant.
because life is so unpredictable i've seen friends leave one by one from this earth,
i dont want to bring along regrets with me when i leave.




As I go, remember all the simple things you know, My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when I'm gone, This is the last song

phew. life for the past week was hectic indeed. coudnt blog cause my dad spoilt my cpu few days back, and my password's being kept inside this com.
so yea, back to life.
the week passed relatively fast and smooth, from monday till friday.
went out with justin on tues to harbourfront,
home for wed and thurs,
had a date with girlfriend on friday.
in case u're wondering, woooooo who the hell.
yes, Sim huiting. yes i know all that controversy's gonna start behind my back again.
well, if u fellas wanna talk about it, why not do it in front of me =DDD
oh well. we went to far east to have chicken rice, den treated her to that gelato thinggy.
den got interrupted by justin and kelwin. so we play billard bla bla.
Sat was hell of abit disappointing, cause many couldnt turn up. peiling and xiaohui had to work the following day so they didnt join us for the steamboat at my place.
so had it with justin kelwin jasmin guanfeng jeremy leonard.
sunday was a stay home day.
today had school, finished at 7plus. fuck shatec's schedule once again.
yes yes yes hopefully friday comes around fast enough again. will be accompanying jenn to the dentist.

and now a random subject. my new friends in class. though i seldom join them outside class, still i find their friendship warming. though we barely knew each other for 2weeks, we could get along real well, other than that hong kong bastard. the rest were all great people. tmr's hui hui's bday and we're going out. first ever shatec class outing. HAHA.
but one thing's for sure. no matter how close these friends are, they will never be compared to my fellas, from justin and peeps to jeremy and peeps, right to ivy.
these are friendships that one will never forget braving all storms and rainbows through years =DDD





and between now and then till i see you again, i'll be loving you, love me.

yes, friday's coming again. i just cant seem to wait for the weekends to come, meeting the fellas, hanging around crapping and catch up on the week's activities. read peiling's blog and somehow i feel she's right. we cant seem to find friends in school now, maybe cause we cant bear to part with the ones we love, the ones we're so close to all these while before tertiary started.
that explains how much we miss them, and how i think if it comes to one day the ones i really treasure arent my friends anymore. well, some are gone. some are going. some are locked right deep inside. And perhaps thats the primary reason why i nvr socialize with my classmates outside school.
well, life today was quite a breeze for the sizzling 5hrs that everyone assumed to be burnt from.
did more napkin folding, and the table setting. instant flashbacks of working life at the raffles hotel 2 years ago came to my mind. damn.
had econs lessons today, and i think im probably gonna get burnt from the econs test 3 weeks from now. stoned around during POC lessons. I just dont get the idea of having a communications class when its all common sense. oh well, perhaps i will slowly learn the importance of it, just like its too late for me to realise the importance of maths and science.
Well tmr and friday's gonna be quite relaxed, cause tmr's lessons end at 4, and friday's lesson end at 11 plus. Now u know why i like thurs and fridays SO MUCH.







i got a lot to say but i guess i'll start by, saying that i love you, but you know this aint a walk in park for the both us

Everyday you see people holding on to the things you want so badly,
knowing you wont be able to get it and yet you try to find a replacement.
And everytime disappointment hits you again and again,
yet you cant utter your thoughts.
what can you even try to say when your world crumbles down and buries you?



tell all my friends im dead, im leaving you, this time is for good, tell all my friends that im dead, it wont be long before you forget my name

i've come to a point again where i feel i cant do it anymore.
though its gonna be a letdown, im sorry to those i promised.
i dont think i can go through these pains.
i give up.
every single thing i clung onto,
every single thing i fought hard for to keep,
i give up.





i dont love you, like i do, yesterday